The other day I was sitting at my desk working on some planning for the new year and I had a question that I asked myself. This question gripped my soul and has not turned it loose. The question is, "Will there be students in Hell looking for me?" This question has raised what I believe is a legitimate fear. This is not your usual fear, this fear has me evaluating how I have done ministry, taught, and lived over the last 10 years.
The fear is simple. I never want to do anything or say anything that will ever hurt or lead students astray. I have counted the cost of this call. I understand the weight that is resting on my shoulders. I know what is required. This sobering question is one that has my whole life in check. The people I hang out with, the things I watch, listen to, and do. I understand that my life screams louder that any sermon I have ever preached. Have I shown an accurate depiction of the love of Jesus? Has my life glorified God or someone else?
Will there be students in Hell looking for me? Just some thoughts I am chewing on today.
Monday, January 12, 2009
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wow. that's heavy. Thanks for the transparency. its challenging.